WoW its almost december!! WB in lyke 1 month and 5 days.. koo...lolz dun kno if im goin wit newun yet =(
Neways.. i was jus thinkin bout how much i chged since the beginning of middle school to .. lets say. today! wellz.. here we go.. (this mite take me a while.. mebe days..)

...in middle school...

 i was a total dork... a goodie too shoee id probably say. mmm i was happy.. enjoying the kind of life i had with my good friends bliss, william, oliver... yea... those were the times... had a stoopid crush that lasted almost forever.. hahaha yea.. lets see.. mmm i think i was still talkin wit stuffed animals.. uhh nd i wore shit clothes.. i dun even remember em.. yea.. den during 8th grade i chged a bit i wore a bit of abercrombie nd fitch.. uhh i got hard contacts.. yea.. nd i started talkin wit my crush nd i remember bein hella nervous lolz. i had no guts.. we use to jus chill outside the cafeteria.. nd play wall ball... ohh nd run to classes in between.. hahah wut dorks.. 8th grade dance.. wow.. that was the day to remember.. bliss didnt feel all that great... he threw up lolz.. uhh me william didnt kno how the hell to dance.. our first wun... ani nd alice nd mel first's too.. nd den everytime we saw em we lyke went the other direction.. lolz i remember will had a crush on mel (visversa) and i had a crush on alice. lolz we use to run away from em during the dance until ani caught me on my collar and dragged me =) uhhzz lets see.. ohh a few days before grad we were gonna take pix but the whole damn orch came out wit us(alice, ani, mel, will, nd bliss.) so me nd the others were lyke wtf... lolz. neways.. yea...

then we actually got the orch to go away.. lolz.. it took a while...

Neways after grad... i had a small party.. yep yep..
not much jus us small group pplz.. lolz. yea.. after a while..
then...

...summer came along...

in the middle of summer between those days.. uhhh went to alice's house i was suppose to ask her out there.. but uhh i onoo i didnt want to do it in front of my friends nd i couldnt get to talk to her alone too.. lolz.. i was a loser.. yea... stoopid as i was.. we jus kept goin... neways.. i ended up asking her in the gayest ways of all.. yea not proud of it either.. haha u can leave a comment if u wanna kno wtf i did.. neways.. movin on... she said yes nd blah blah.. then my b.day came..
oddly i couldnt find any pix from that.. soo thats a bummer. neways. had some pplz come over just to have fun.. i think uhh oddly i remember how will got my jedi outkast lolz dat was tight.. oli got me rollercoaster... uhh bliss and alice got me oddly 1 2 and 3 of the WoT Series unexpectedly they didnt kno it.. lolz. uhh yea.. i remember we hit each other with lil foam sticks that i still have.. hahahaha... yea.. wellz.. den after dat... i regret that the party turned out to be lyke a memory from hell.

..high school..

high school.. yea... 1 month in me nd alice broke up.. i still dun kno why.. but i have a good clue ... i was a dumb ass person obviously neither of us i guess were ready for it.. i didnt kno how to act.. i was confused too.. cause of some things.. uhh well i chged tat frosh yr too.. i was totally a prep.. wit soft contacts.. had problems wit hard wuns they would fall out during wushu and everywun would search on the floor wit me for it. lolz. uhhh yea.. frosh yr.. i probably chged the most...

1st. i turned prep..
( i remember angela asking me not too long ago why or wut did i chg for...) but i wanted to chg for...) i answered i guess my sis chged me.. then i thought bout it lookin back... i didnt chg cause of my sis but for someone... but i guess that ended up to be a waste.. lolz. that suxed. oh well least im not dressin lyke i use to...

2nd. i got depressed terribly.. lolz
as u could tell if newun noticed after the break up i got terribly cold.. uhh thats wut some of my friends would have described me.. i guess nd emotionless i gues.. i onoo i was just devistated.. wutever. i guess wut hurt most was that i felt my friends didnt care. they didnt find out that me nd alice broke up till 2 months later.. i gues thats sad on both parts me nd my friends.. (cause i was a bad bf.. nd yea.) well i felt terribly mad and sad.. i gues till this very day im still very mad at them for still never asking the question:

HOW ARE U DOING?
WHATS WRONG?

Something lke dat.. i onoo.. nope.. they still dun ... thats when..

3rd. i left the group and got Alex =)
haha i left em i guess i jus found a new friend i met alex.. lets see.. he was talkin wit alice (during the time we were goin out)  and i guess i was jealous.. so i refused to tel him my name =) hahahaha thats the truth broo =) but i told himcause me nd him went the same direction as i did we biked the same way home lolz. yea that was tight.now weere hella tight

haha uhhz then i kept hanging wit him mike nd jay i even met sam.. we made a lil weird hand shake thingy that takes lyke 1 sec .5 to do it even tho its hella long.. =) uhh yea i remember frosh yr i tried to keep my old frineds nd my new.. breaks were wit my bliss will ani alice mel even tho alice nad ani seemed to always be goin at something... nd i somehow got in the middle ... yea... nd lunch wit alex, sam, jay, mike. yea.. then as me nd alex hung out during lunch we: mark eric talent barry darren brenden... nd  B.I.C.  etc that i cant name right now started breaking.. i guess we got into the matroom some how.. the grls: van, sarah, michelle, emily, jenny, and deborah would aways walk and make fun of em.. lolz.. the most i learned was a t-flare.. lolz but i decided to stick wit wushu.. ohh yea.. some grl =P Jane i met at my violin teachers plc she went before me nd waited till her mom came.. i didnt kno who she was till she msged me haha we talked a bunch online my mom got pissed... i guess u could say she turned me the rebelious type nd to disobey laws rules.. then again i think my new friends and jane gave me the push to get outa of my goodie too shoee state lolz... me nd jane would talk lyke to 3 or something in the morning while i was watching Adult Swim (CARTOON NETWORK NOT PORN) and i think she was jus in bed tryin to sleep or on the computer lolz. ah yes.. i guess i had a thing for jane .. well actually yea i did. i realized it when i started talkin to her bout that she would meet other pplz in high school nd den she was lyke u dun lyke me or somethin i dun remember.. it was all happening too fast.. nd den she signed off nd said i dun wanna talk to u no more... yea.. mmmm oh  yea i had another friend dimitrious.. yes.. we had great times haha in p.e. too nd bout.. well thats between me nd him =) .. uhhh i met arvin erica matt angela nd some other pplz in health.. yes.. den...

oh we also had a seatle trip for orch class... yea it was enjoyable.. kind of...

bus pics

lolz bliss caught this shot.

Bliss, william, Me, amos, nd aaron. mugg

Haha some random pix

 uhh all of a sudden someone new was in my life.. Emily lolz..

things happened i guess i onoo.. 2 yrs will do that to u =P uhh well eventually i asked her out.. lolz wit the help of deborah nd.. uh oh... uh sarah or michelle... ....... .NEWAYSSS yep. we were happy.. but time in my mind seemed to keep .. ticking... ticking and ticking..
i was still trying to keep my old friends nd my new... i stopped hangin out during break.. i believe i got reallie pissed off at my old friends.. it reallie hurt jus stopped looking at em as disgusting assholes.. they made a bet.. how FUCKING MESSED UP WAS THAT. HOLLY SHITT I WAS HELLA PISSED.. they were betting on how long it would tkae before me nd emily broke up.. i was happpy wit her too.. so i saw it as they were betting on how long my happiness would last.. that reallie fuckin hurt.. i even asked them if they have a problem with me nd emily goin out nd i kno some of em did.. i called oliver he told me that he didnt have a problem and that they werent talking bout me during whenever buut i knew they were.. so in the end i jus stayed mad at em.. i remember i told bliss something and he blabbed itout during break to ani... wow.. how was i suppose to trust them... this big fight that was happening between me nd ani that lasted i onoo since the break up of me nd alice till lyke i onoo mebe today.. who knows... wut i reallie hated was how ani nd alice would lyke read the WoT series and lyke COMPARE them to people.. that aggrivated me. ur judging the character of people u dun kno much bout.. neways.. moving right along.. if ur reading this wow.. lolz. hope ur not a stalker..
Extras: Went to homecoming wit Vanessa where i learned how to Freak lolz... from 3 different grls. mmhmmm thats bout it.

Summer o2

Wow.. so over all i hated my old friends enjoyed my new friends and had an angry weird cold "emtionless" heart. lolz. mmmm i figured out how to control my anger and use it during wushu to get a boost of energy whenever i needed.. odd eh.. well wutever all i had to do was think bout something and boom off i go. nuthin reallie happened dis summer.. oh.. i started talkin wit jane nd i had a misunderstanding convo.. i saw her during jenny lin nd i guess i had a thing fo her still.. unfortunately i found out she was gonna talk wit me after i ... nd den i  blah blah blah yea.. jus ask or wutever. neways.

o3 HS Soph

mmm hangin wit alex nd jay nd mike nd sam lolz still breaking nd shit lolz. life was good i guess lolz nuthin reallie happened ohh hahaha i went to WB which was TOTALLY FUN!! HAHAHA uhh lets see.. if i can remember.. i remember alex was gettin foxed but "avoided it" nice wun bro.
uhh i took pix wit annalissa because she needed a white / asian to take a pic wit her so her parents wouldnt find out she was goin wit matt (which they found out anyway) lolz... uhhz i went wit steph =P uhh pplz dat we went out to dinner wit (my mum was the driver hahaha) uhh eric : irene.. Jonathan : uhh oh.. wuts her name... NEWAYSSS dinner was funnie i remember that nd we couldnt stop laughing that was great.. lolz. uhhz johnathan kept grabbin LOW hahaha eric nd irene were goin crazy..

.

 mmmm hmmm yea.. after that me nd alex nd mike went off to play some pool at billards.. my mum picked us up...

wow neways... yea... blah blah blah Fastfoward... mmmm during the end of soph yr..

i met arvin.

we met after school and after a while we started to hang out.. i remember i missed the spring fling dance jus to have fun wit him. we went to play inital D lolz joined the crew Jus4u. lolz

Summer o4 Mike got a gf
Jay i onoo got 1? i onoo
lets see.. Alex got Emily L. lolz.
hahahha neways.. lets see... oh chilled wit arvin alot during the summer we had fun played intial d talked bout cars and stuff.... we tried to do somethings to my car but.. yea... wellz yep.. my 16th b.day i was in A FUCKING JENNY LIN FUCKIN REHEARSAL OMG I WAS SOO FUCKING PISSED ND ONLY JESSICA SAID HAPPY B.DAY TOO ME. FUCKING PISSING ME OFF DAMN oh wellz we had a surprise party for my sis.. yea.. 21 legal to start drinking.. yea we had a big party at palomaros commuity center.. found out mikes gf, jo.... was lyke my childhood friend from my church lolz. neways. yea uhh this yr..

I MADE A PACT WIT ARVIN...

I promised duing my 16th b.day that i would do my best to forget about alice. I would try to enjoy my life. and stop tormenting my own heart by thinking bout her because it was useless... soo... we drank (alcohol.) to it and den we decided that i could try wun more time.. which by the way i did try wun time (halloween party) and i guess i failed.. so wutever now. 16 b.day was a big dance it was hella fun... hahaha..

o4 hs

i onoo wut happened.. i had a halloween party.. yea.. it went alrite.. some fucker stole 50 bucks from me but ill get em.. jus wait.. ill get em all i dun care who did it ill get that whole group. argh.. wbs comin up yea... gotta ask someone.. we'll c. oh im driving now lolz i joined a group.. www.geocities.com/stealthimage3 uhhz yea.. im drivin my car around.. ... now adays when i dun wanna think bout life.. nd the past.. the events i look i jus take a spin =P ahh yes.. hahha i forgot bout arvin my bad.. jeez... hahahah kno wunder i couldnt think bout shit. yes yes 2 hrs of writing a fuckin entry will do that to u. well neways.. yes. uhh during the end of soph yr i talked wit arvin wun time after schoo nd den he said he was gettin his license and shit lyke dat nd we made some common ground.. yep.. den he taught me how to play initial D hahhaha i suck at that game.. after awhile i started getting into cars damn him hahaha im addicted.. neways.. yes.. during the summer we had lots of fun putting in new stuff that didnt fit.. (stoopid cat converter) neways.. yea... biii (is that better arvin jeez.)

Ohh by the way this is my car

Stealth Image Project: Demo
91 Integra
Name: Alice
Old greek for truth and nobility
Why?: Because i need to be true to my self nd i will never hold back in the events thats life hands me.

OKAY I DECIDED TO ADD MORE BOUT THE HALLOWEEN PARTY!!

The halloweeen party was fun but i had its ups and downs... Lets see we started the day off goin to davis me alex nd my mum to help my sis wit her comp.. i couldnt do much except delete 50+ viruses.. soo yea... lolz.. neways we went back we got dry ice from danny in UC BERK FOR FREE LOLZ yea we had to go to 3 grocieries stores before we could find a fuckin cooler. lolz.. neways ... we ewent back home nd my mum picked up tiffany... yep.. tiff helped us set up a bit more.. cause we already pretty much did everythings in the past 3 days.. lolz.. uhhz i was bout to shave but then lyke alex runs to me wit my cell dialing alice nd i was lyke wtf.. i almost well i think i did prick my self.. neways.. lolz. uhh i got into my suit for kill bill

nd i went to pick up gogo (jane) my killing partner in kill bill. lolz i was the crazy 88 =P uhh lets see we went to get food but then it took a while.. lolz... so by the time we got back arvin, angela, johnson, nd monica came.. so that was koo we started to watch the texas chainsaw massacur or wutever. lolz. den james came and den alice (somehow got persuaded thro AIM chat.. lolz.) uhh a few more pplz came lyke Shawn and Jason hahha that was tight uhh eventually we all went trick or treating.. nd me nd alice came back to scare the shit out alex but i guess we didnt.. =( uhhz we finished (angela, alex, alice nd me) the movie.. arvin came back nd tifff nd den they served the lil kids candy lolz. uhhzz lets see.... verywun came back eventually afer we got a bit of the dance started.. then korean krew came in (crashed the party) and some fucker by the end of the nite stole 50+ bucks from me. fuckers.. ill get u all.. i gave angela a lap dance lolz for a breif sec nd den she seemed teribly disturbed.. sigh.. lolz it was great we had dry ice in rice cookers nd dark lights nd music it was a great thing.. lolz.. most pplz didnt start dancing till lyke my aunt nd my mum went upstairs lolz.. uhhz i believe there was only 2 slow songs played.. lolz.. the first time i danced wit over course alice.. nd den she lyke pushes me away or something or jus stops talkin nd im lyke eh? nd her moms in the house i was lyke ohh.. wlak towards arvin nd hes lyke wuts wrong? wuts goin on? wut happened? nd i was lyke her mom is here..... shit... nd hes all what?? who cares if ur mom is watching shes kool  LOLz hahaha.. neways.. yep.. that was a bummer but later i got a lap dance from *cough* hahaha dat was funnie.. nd other shit happened lyke uhh replayed the home coming dance hahahahaha... great times... wellz dats bout it..

over all: im still frinds wit alex..
i onoo wut happened wit mike nd jay they stopped talkin wit me.
now i jus chill wit arvin nd alex =P
so... here... i started:

dork ---> prep ---> depressed ---> a life full of meaning... or a life that has no direction..

Goodie/Dork --> Rolo --> JDR

Links:
www.geocities.com/stealthimage3
http://photos.yahoo.com/aznpreppyboi

wellz yea.. special things
Alex : bro dun move downnn =( whoz am i suppose to talk too besides arvinn

Arvin: hahahha ill TRY TO remember the pact i made on my b.day.. i gave it a try to get back wit her.. so i guess its time i move on ehhh.. lolz.. wellz im keepin my promise wit chu.. alrite? im movin on... just lemmme try wun moree... time..... sorrie bro nd stop makin threats to me bout shocks this and team that.. jeez jus ask nicely..

Thats it.. wellz.. im starting new xanga now..

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